1. I don't like SCRAMBLED EGGS, they make me gag, but I'll eat Egg Fu-Yong at most Chinese restaurants.
2. I hate SHAVING MY LEGS, so whoever I marry will just have to deal with it. I mean, honestly, it's so annoying and time consuming and plus, my legs are really long...so I only shave when I'm gonna wear a dress, skirt, shorts or go to the beach.
3. I love MICHAEL PHELPS! Yes, even after his latest flub. He is, in my opinion, an incredible example of how POSSIBLE the IMPOSSIBLE can be. I mean, he's seriously human yet with commitment, hard work, perseverence and dreams he accomplished something completely SUPERHUMAN. It makes me feel like even I can do something extraordinary if I wanted. Simply amazing.
4. I fully intend on winning a GRAMMY one day. And, I haven't quite figured out just how I'm going to do that, but I'm going to prepare my acceptance speech anyway. I think I'm gonna be one of those who gets booted off the stage cause I go so long with the THANK YOUS...haha!
5. I have lately developed a distaste for MARRIAGE and sharing my life with someone. Weird because all my life I was the girl who DREAMED of that perfect one. Now, I am so aware of how there is NO "perfect" one...and I wonder if it is really worth it to give your heart to someone who just might disregard it, hurt it and toss it.
6. I spend more money at Blockbuster buying DVD'S than I do at Macy's buying clothes. It's almost unhealthy, really.
7. I am seriously terrified of GECKOS. When I was a little girl, a gecko fell on my head and I didn't realize it until I ran my hands through my head and felt this squishy, squirmy thing. AAAAAHhhh! I screamed, freaked out and have been terrified of them ever since.
8. I can pick up ROACHES with my bare hands. Unlike geckos, they don't scare me at all.
9. My feelings can get hurt really easily, but sometimes I could care less about what someone says about me. It's really hard to tell when I may be affected or not. My poor family and friends never know if I'll be stoic or totally shattered.
10. I wish I played VOLLEYBALL in High School. I think I might've been pretty good at it.
11. I'm MOODY. Not grouchy, just very moody...and I've come to know my moods well. For the most part I'm pretty easy-going, but when I know what I want or don't want I'm UNWAVERING and extremely opposed to anything that threatens me to feel otherwise.
12. I have a FLABBY-STOMACH...from all the chips and snacks I enjoyed growing up. It's flat, but flabby.
13. I am quickly losing interest in writing this BLOG. Suddenly, it's harder than I thought to come up with 25 random, yet somewhat interesting facts about me. Oh well, now that I admitted my growing disinterest, my pride won't let me not complete the task at hand.
14. I only like to sing with WIRELESS MICROPHONES. It gives me another level of confidence...and, I have no idea why. But, most times I'd choose a crappy wireless or a quality wire microphone.
15. I have a weak BLADDER from having to hold my pee for hours during my 14 months of being Miss Guam Tourism 2003. During events or meetings, I always held my pee just to be polite or keep from breaking the flow of the always hectic schedule. I am now paying the price...and have to pee frequently during the days.
16. I'm really glad this BLOG is almost done with. I'm now forcing myself to keep writing for the sake of finishing something I started. I've gone too far into it to just delete and move on.
17. I only like to run with ASICS SHOES. And, I'm a very tempermental runner. I have to have a certain playlist, certain shoes, can't have drank too much coffee before the run and I get irritated when people try to push me to run more than I know I can or want to.
18. As of today I weigh 131 POUNDS and I wish I were 123 pounds. Oh well, at least I am no longer the 156 pounds I was a year ago. Heartache has a way of shaving off the pounds.
19. I have read the BIBLE front to back more times than I can count. My favorite verse is Proverbs 3:5,6 and my favorite book is Psalms and James. My favorite Bible people are David, Joseph, Esther and of course, Jesus.
20. If I were stranded on a deserted island and could only bring 5 items...I would bring 1) a Bible, 2) a life-time supply of Tampons 3) Spaghettios 4) a can opener and 5) a machete.
21. I actually wanted CLAY AIKEN to win the 2nd Season of American Idol. I mean, don't get me wrong...I totally love Ruben, but I just thought Clay's voice was unbelievable! Some of those notes he hit...whoa! Visit this site if you don't believe me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QC9SKjdoTXg (wait for the closing note...stunning!)
22. ACAI BOWLS...mmm, no need say more.
23. I have never SMOKED anything before...cigarettes or the other things that can be smoked.
24. I want to become rich enough one day and pay off all my parents bills so they can retire and enjoy life without debt...and Jas and Jen and Brother too.
25. I hope that the day I die, I'll have left a legacy that shows a life of touching peoples lives wherever and however I could...and that I as much as I could...I brought JOY TO THE WORLD.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
The 10 THINGS I Miss Most About GUAM
Having just recently moved from Guam to the island of Oahu, I have found so much of my heart is stuck and etched in the sands, seas and loves of my paradise island of Guam. So, I thought I'd spend some time documenting just a few of the countless things I love and miss about my island of Guam.
10. 160,000: Referring to the 160,000 people who call Guam home. I miss every single one of them. Yes, even the ones who made sure to blog mean things about me when I decided to vote YES for Prop A :) Yes, I even miss them. It takes every single one of those 160,000 people to make Guam the imperfectly perfect place it is and I wouldn't want it any other way.
9. THE FRIZZIES: By this I am referring to the "HUMIDITY" and the way it causes mine and every other flat-iron using ladies hair to FRIZZ up beyond recognition. Here in Hawaii my hair just falls too nice, too smooth. I mean, I've spent the past 29 years trying to work around the limitations of living in a seriously humid place...and just when I get it down...I move and no longer need those skills. Haha, go figure.
8. SUNNY RAIN: Everyone who lives on Guam knows exactly what I mean by this. Haha. Only in Guam can the SUN be BLAZING hot yet RAIN be gushing from the sunny skies! Haha :) And, I'm sure all our Motorcycle, Moped dudes and dudettes can completely relate to this most frustrating part of life on Guam. Just when you think it's gonna burn your buns off, RAIN RAIN RAIN all the way! Why does the news even include a WEATHER portion? Haha.
7. FIESTAS AND DIET SODA: You know you're Chamorro when...and yes, I really do believe it is a CHAMORRO tradition! One which I miss very much! I mean, where else in the world do people, just for the mere sake of celebration and family, throw all diets to the wind, pile greasy chow on their bending paper plates, and make their way to the drink bar to grab a DIET SODA? Only on our Guam! Oh, our beautiful, DIET SODA loving Guam :)
6. MEMORY LANE: 29 years of life. Are you kidding?! Of course I have MEMORIES...enough to fill a thousand scrapbooks (which, if I had time, I would put together for every special occasion in my life). I miss that every square inch of the island includes some kind of memory, some kind of weird story or time when I meant to create one there, but never got to it. Memories...like the corners of my mind. I'm getting friggin misty :(
5. REALITY CHECKS: Guam is where my REAL WORLD is. All the good, the bad, the very bad, the awesomely stupid. It's all in my face the moment I return to my island soil. No matter where I go and how long I'm gone, Guam never fails to REMIND me of REALITY and keep me in check if ever I start to think I have it all together. Only on Guam do my imperfections find confirmations. Just ask around...I'm sure you'll run into a bunch who can attest to this truth. Or, maybe just take my word for it ;P
4. NAMES: It's like that weird "Cheers" song..."where everyone knows your name"...yeah, I actually do miss that about Guam. I like walking into Shirley's in Hagatna and the server asking me, "Miss Joy, what would you like to drink?" Ok, ok...so not everyone knows my name, and I definitely don't know everyone else's name, but it's just that feel, that vibe, that sometimes moment in Shirleys when someone actually does know my name.
3. COMFORTABLE: My bed, my car, my house, my life...it is COMFORTABLE. Nothing too out of synch, nothing too funky, I pretty much control what comes in and what goes out. I miss that COMFORTABLE feeling I get each day when I wake up and walk to my kitchen to make my cup of Starbucks coffee. I miss the COMFORT of knowing exactly where I'm going...I'm not the biggest fan of GOOGLE MAPS and missing my exit on the freeway. Guam = COMFORTABLE...which is actually the reason I moved. Time I get UNCOMFORTABLE.
2. HOMIES: The simple things like knowing where the clean towels are, or just where to find a screwdriver if ever I need to assemble a bookshelf. I miss my DVD's and being able to scrimmage through my insane collection of cinematic adventures, before putting it in the projector and flopping on my sofa to fall asleep to my movie of choice for the night. I just miss my HOME...doing the dishes, straightening the shoes in the foyer, putting Trevor's toys back into its designated corner in the living room. Home is where my heart is.
1. JAMFAM: These 9 people I miss most of all! Dad, Mom, Jen, Brother, Jas, Steffy, Skyy, Madison and of course Trevor! I've spent my entire life waking up and being blessed with sharing a morning conversation over coffee with them. I miss just seeing their faces and even the moments I couldn't stand another moment with them. Fights, squabbles, fun times...I MISS IT ALL! Dad, I miss your random calls to my phone and how you ask, "how's my girl doing?"...I miss you Dad. Mom, I miss hearing your voice at 9PM as you ask me, Jen and Vince, "does anyone want coffee?"...yes, I even miss our arguements. Jen, I miss your morning requests and random phone calls to as you say, "borrow a shirt or dress, please?"...I love how you always apologize for asking, and then ask all over again. Brother, I just miss you...you're such a dork and I miss your kisses on the cheek whenever you head out to work or just hanging with your friends. Jas, I doubt there is enough room to write all the things I miss about you, but let coffee, running, unloading your car when you return from the commissary, etc...be included in all the things I miss about you...you're my hero, always have been, always will be. Steffy, you're the only guy in the world who has ever made Jas as happy as she is...and I love you and miss you for that...plus, you're pretty awesome too! Skyy and Madison...I just miss hanging with you...and watching our stupid scary movies that make us not want to sleep at night. Hahahaha. And Trevor...my favorite part of each day...I miss everything about you...yes, even your stinky poo, when you punch me in the face and scream if I try to kiss you...I miss it all...I miss you all...I miss my Guam.
10. 160,000: Referring to the 160,000 people who call Guam home. I miss every single one of them. Yes, even the ones who made sure to blog mean things about me when I decided to vote YES for Prop A :) Yes, I even miss them. It takes every single one of those 160,000 people to make Guam the imperfectly perfect place it is and I wouldn't want it any other way.
9. THE FRIZZIES: By this I am referring to the "HUMIDITY" and the way it causes mine and every other flat-iron using ladies hair to FRIZZ up beyond recognition. Here in Hawaii my hair just falls too nice, too smooth. I mean, I've spent the past 29 years trying to work around the limitations of living in a seriously humid place...and just when I get it down...I move and no longer need those skills. Haha, go figure.
8. SUNNY RAIN: Everyone who lives on Guam knows exactly what I mean by this. Haha. Only in Guam can the SUN be BLAZING hot yet RAIN be gushing from the sunny skies! Haha :) And, I'm sure all our Motorcycle, Moped dudes and dudettes can completely relate to this most frustrating part of life on Guam. Just when you think it's gonna burn your buns off, RAIN RAIN RAIN all the way! Why does the news even include a WEATHER portion? Haha.
7. FIESTAS AND DIET SODA: You know you're Chamorro when...and yes, I really do believe it is a CHAMORRO tradition! One which I miss very much! I mean, where else in the world do people, just for the mere sake of celebration and family, throw all diets to the wind, pile greasy chow on their bending paper plates, and make their way to the drink bar to grab a DIET SODA? Only on our Guam! Oh, our beautiful, DIET SODA loving Guam :)
6. MEMORY LANE: 29 years of life. Are you kidding?! Of course I have MEMORIES...enough to fill a thousand scrapbooks (which, if I had time, I would put together for every special occasion in my life). I miss that every square inch of the island includes some kind of memory, some kind of weird story or time when I meant to create one there, but never got to it. Memories...like the corners of my mind. I'm getting friggin misty :(
5. REALITY CHECKS: Guam is where my REAL WORLD is. All the good, the bad, the very bad, the awesomely stupid. It's all in my face the moment I return to my island soil. No matter where I go and how long I'm gone, Guam never fails to REMIND me of REALITY and keep me in check if ever I start to think I have it all together. Only on Guam do my imperfections find confirmations. Just ask around...I'm sure you'll run into a bunch who can attest to this truth. Or, maybe just take my word for it ;P
4. NAMES: It's like that weird "Cheers" song..."where everyone knows your name"...yeah, I actually do miss that about Guam. I like walking into Shirley's in Hagatna and the server asking me, "Miss Joy, what would you like to drink?" Ok, ok...so not everyone knows my name, and I definitely don't know everyone else's name, but it's just that feel, that vibe, that sometimes moment in Shirleys when someone actually does know my name.
3. COMFORTABLE: My bed, my car, my house, my life...it is COMFORTABLE. Nothing too out of synch, nothing too funky, I pretty much control what comes in and what goes out. I miss that COMFORTABLE feeling I get each day when I wake up and walk to my kitchen to make my cup of Starbucks coffee. I miss the COMFORT of knowing exactly where I'm going...I'm not the biggest fan of GOOGLE MAPS and missing my exit on the freeway. Guam = COMFORTABLE...which is actually the reason I moved. Time I get UNCOMFORTABLE.
2. HOMIES: The simple things like knowing where the clean towels are, or just where to find a screwdriver if ever I need to assemble a bookshelf. I miss my DVD's and being able to scrimmage through my insane collection of cinematic adventures, before putting it in the projector and flopping on my sofa to fall asleep to my movie of choice for the night. I just miss my HOME...doing the dishes, straightening the shoes in the foyer, putting Trevor's toys back into its designated corner in the living room. Home is where my heart is.
1. JAMFAM: These 9 people I miss most of all! Dad, Mom, Jen, Brother, Jas, Steffy, Skyy, Madison and of course Trevor! I've spent my entire life waking up and being blessed with sharing a morning conversation over coffee with them. I miss just seeing their faces and even the moments I couldn't stand another moment with them. Fights, squabbles, fun times...I MISS IT ALL! Dad, I miss your random calls to my phone and how you ask, "how's my girl doing?"...I miss you Dad. Mom, I miss hearing your voice at 9PM as you ask me, Jen and Vince, "does anyone want coffee?"...yes, I even miss our arguements. Jen, I miss your morning requests and random phone calls to as you say, "borrow a shirt or dress, please?"...I love how you always apologize for asking, and then ask all over again. Brother, I just miss you...you're such a dork and I miss your kisses on the cheek whenever you head out to work or just hanging with your friends. Jas, I doubt there is enough room to write all the things I miss about you, but let coffee, running, unloading your car when you return from the commissary, etc...be included in all the things I miss about you...you're my hero, always have been, always will be. Steffy, you're the only guy in the world who has ever made Jas as happy as she is...and I love you and miss you for that...plus, you're pretty awesome too! Skyy and Madison...I just miss hanging with you...and watching our stupid scary movies that make us not want to sleep at night. Hahahaha. And Trevor...my favorite part of each day...I miss everything about you...yes, even your stinky poo, when you punch me in the face and scream if I try to kiss you...I miss it all...I miss you all...I miss my Guam.
Her Name Is JOY
Her name is Joy.
She has a lot of UPS and DOWNS.
She is full of imperfections and insecurities.
Sometimes she wakes up and wonders if it really is worth it.
Sometimes she doesn't want to keep going.Sometimes she makes mistakes - the kind of mistakes she'd rather not admit to.
Her name is Joy.
She has a tendency to dream extravagant dreams.
She really does believe that everything is possible WITH GOD.
But, sometimes she's too scared to dare to dream and to follow those dreams.
Sometimes she'd rather just let time go by and not risk the failed attempt.
Sometimes she is so cowardly and so fearful and so unsure.
Her name is Joy.
She doesn't always feel the the way her name says she should feel.
She fights being sad.
She panickes when she thinks she might lose something.
Her greatest fear is rejection - it's something that has happened all her life.
She wonders will she ever be loved back?
Her name is Joy.
She wishes her heart would stop hurting; she regrets not taking better care of it.
She knows she is guilty of hurting others and wishes she could take it back.
Sometimes she hurts others because she is hurting herself.
She really doesn't know how to just be herself and always okay with that.
Honestly, she counts so much on the love and approval of those around her.
Her name is Joy.
She is so far from being everything God says she could be.
Sometimes she feels like a failure and a waste of great potential.
She has never thought she was perfect, lovely enough or too holy.
In fact, she is the only one who really knows the ugliness that lingers within.
She is so sorry for ever acting like she's got it all together.
Her name is Joy.
She knows that she is made in the image of God; He only makes good things.
She knows that nothing is too much too handle when God is on her side.
She knows that TRUST in God is the only way to understand His mysterious ways.
She knows that ALL THINGS will work out for GOOD.
She knows that JOY, true JOY can only come from God, nothing and absolutely no one else will do; and she tries with all her heart to live that through.
Her name is Joy.
Joy Lynn Sablan James.
She has a lot of UPS and DOWNS.
She is full of imperfections and insecurities.
Sometimes she wakes up and wonders if it really is worth it.
Sometimes she doesn't want to keep going.Sometimes she makes mistakes - the kind of mistakes she'd rather not admit to.
Her name is Joy.
She has a tendency to dream extravagant dreams.
She really does believe that everything is possible WITH GOD.
But, sometimes she's too scared to dare to dream and to follow those dreams.
Sometimes she'd rather just let time go by and not risk the failed attempt.
Sometimes she is so cowardly and so fearful and so unsure.
Her name is Joy.
She doesn't always feel the the way her name says she should feel.
She fights being sad.
She panickes when she thinks she might lose something.
Her greatest fear is rejection - it's something that has happened all her life.
She wonders will she ever be loved back?
Her name is Joy.
She wishes her heart would stop hurting; she regrets not taking better care of it.
She knows she is guilty of hurting others and wishes she could take it back.
Sometimes she hurts others because she is hurting herself.
She really doesn't know how to just be herself and always okay with that.
Honestly, she counts so much on the love and approval of those around her.
Her name is Joy.
She is so far from being everything God says she could be.
Sometimes she feels like a failure and a waste of great potential.
She has never thought she was perfect, lovely enough or too holy.
In fact, she is the only one who really knows the ugliness that lingers within.
She is so sorry for ever acting like she's got it all together.
Her name is Joy.
She knows that she is made in the image of God; He only makes good things.
She knows that nothing is too much too handle when God is on her side.
She knows that TRUST in God is the only way to understand His mysterious ways.
She knows that ALL THINGS will work out for GOOD.
She knows that JOY, true JOY can only come from God, nothing and absolutely no one else will do; and she tries with all her heart to live that through.
Her name is Joy.
Joy Lynn Sablan James.
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